Down the memory lane.....

Today while going to office cafeteria I saw one girl who was wearing high pointed heels fell down from the steps because of the imbalance. It reminded one of the similar embarrassing incidents that happened with me and my friend Saba around four years back :-) :-) 

That incident occurred during a college farewell party. At the end of the party, ball dance was organized by our juniors. Saba was wearing pointed heels and was very uncomfortable but I insisted her to wear as the sandals were going best with her dress. 

After some time, she made me as her dance partner and within 5 minutes of dancing we both fell down on the floor because we lost our balance in between because of heels. It took us several minutes to realize what was happening as music was stopped and everyone including our juniors/batch mates were staring at us :-) :-)

We both wanted to cry at that time because of pain (and awkwardness too!!!) but somehow managed to laugh and pretended that we were alright.

Whenever I remember that incidence, automatically a big smile comes on my face….

Those two years were the best period for me during which I realized the importance of friendship in life.

For me, any relation first starts with the friendship only. It is the most valuable bond in this world….

Thanks Saba for all the lovely memories!!! I never forget the time I spent with you in Jamia especially late night Maggie and tea parties, nagin dance and the way you shouted NEHA NEHA several times in a hostel :-) :-)

Small Things.....

There are some things that you can fulfill with money, but at the end of the day these are not the things that make you happy. It is the small things that make life good.

                                                                                                     By Sebastian Vettel

This week I was in Bangalore for an official trip. My schedule was very hectic there. So couldn’t get a chance to explore this city. 

 

I always feel some special connection with this city as last time when I visited this city, I realized many facts. I took some important decisions related to my career and my personal life and when I returned back to Hyderabad I felt like the luckiest person in this world.

Life has been changed within these five months. I think finally I came out from my dream world and start facing reality which is different from my dreams….

Again I am moving out of the Hyderabad next month. But this time I am not feeling any anxiety. I am neither happy nor sad. 

Some of my friends are saying that I have taken a good decision. Some are asking me to reconsider it. 

I really don’t know what is wrong or right. But one thing I know that finally all that matters in life is not a huge salary or a highly successful career - but small things like your friends, siblings, parents, life partner …..there is absolutely nothing like it. I am happy that finally I am again going to live with my sister after six years…..

Small things really matter a lot in life!!!

Last to last week, I accompanied my friend to drop her mother to the railway station as the train timing was late at night.  While coming back her mother gave me and her 100 rupees note. I was too touched by seeing her emotions while giving that note to me. There is utterly nothing important in life but precious sentiments/relations…..

Today I played Badminton in the office campus almost after 2 years. In the starting I was a little bit scared regarding my playing skills. But in the end I won both the matches :-) :-)

Credit goes to my casual Friday wear and sports shoes!!! I couldn’t find much difficulty in running around the entire court. 

I was the only girl among all the players so I felt little uncomfortable as everyone was staring at me but my awkwardness went on air when I played better than them :-) :-) 

I think for every IT professional like me, Friday is the most awaited day of the week as we get freedom to come in casuals and mostly there is no call or meeting schedule on Friday so the work pressure is almost negligible or nil :-) :-)

SILENCE

Sky is clear, the breeze is flowing outside but my mood is blue. Tired of whole day work, demo presentation, planning and displaying intellect more than that exists…

      

While opening the flat lock, I felt the same as the last km for the marathon runner, the final destination.  The flat was dark and silent. Today first time I felt suffocated in my formal attires which in the morning felt like the synonym of a true professional. 

After having dinner went to terrace for a walk. The city was partially lit by the black & the white brightness of the night and partially by the artificial bright lights coming out of the multi storied buildings. Most of these buildings are IT companies where some people are still working in the night shifts….

Realized that now I am in my protective shell, no more struggles, no more morning rushes and no more pretensions…. 

After coming back to my room, decided to check my personal mails and ending my day by writing this blog post. My mood is changing its color blue to nothing - no positive or negative thoughts, no right or wrong.., no acceptable or unacceptable…just a blank…I am truly enjoying the realm of silence..utter silence…

What is Love???

Today while going through allpoetry.com, I read this beautiful poem written by Pablo Neruda:

Love Sonnet XVII

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,

or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,

in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms

but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;

thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,

risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you with knowing how, or when, or from where.

I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;

so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,

so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,

so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep

There was a time when I don’t believe in LOVE. For me it was a filmi kind of thing which happens only in Bollywood films. I was so confident that I can never fall in LOVE with anyone. Now I can laugh at my stupidity

Gradually with time I came to know about the real meaning of LOVE. When I was a kid I used to fight with my sister for small issues like pen, ice-cream share, study table etc. At that time, I didn’t realize that was nothing, just the LOVE between me and my sis.

In fact the whole world runs on this beautiful feeling. We LOVE our favorites- toy, color, clothes, gadgets etc….

Butterscotch-my favorite flavor of ice-cream. I just LOVE it. Again LOVE???

Sometimes we confused between LOVE, crush, attraction, and infatuation. I think crush, attraction, infatuation are not LOVE but we can change it to LOVE

During the college time, I was in LOVE with one of the news anchors (News anchor??? I always have some "hatke" [different] choices). Somehow one of my closest friends managed to find out his poster and gifted it to me on my Birthday

I LOVE playing with small kids, LOVE shopping and chocolates. I LOVE my hairs. This fact I came to know this February only when I experimented with my hairs and it resulted in a bad hairstyle…

I tried a lot not to cry but tears started falling on my cheeks.  That day only I realized that I LOVE my hairs too

But sometime LOVE can be different too. LOVE is different when you fall in LOVE with "SOMEONE SPECIAL". When you ready to leave everything for that "special" person in your life…It’s an awesome feeling. You can never think wrong about that person whatever your circumstances may be...

I truly believe that where there is LOVE, everything else can be worked out….

I got this mail some days ago regarding the reason behind the blindness of LOVE….

Once all the feelings decided to play Hide N Seek.

Pain started counting. All others were hiding.

Lie said he will hide near tree but didn’t do that.

LOVE hides in a rose bush.

Everyone was caught except LOVE.

But envy told pain where LOVE was hiding.

So pain jumped in the bush and dragged LOVE out.

Because of thorns in the bush LOVE lost both his eyes.

Hence god cursed pain and he was ordered to be with LOVE forever.

Since then the LOVE is blind and pain always accompanies...

So if LOVE hurts you-Be happy. It means, you are really in LOVE 

But don’t try to hold on to the past. Just MOVE ON…You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one and in the course of writing a new chapter don’t forget to LOVE your life as it is BEAUTIFUL and of course EXPENSIVE too

BTW following is one of my favorite romantic songs. I LOVE the lyrics of this song. Again LOVE???